Love is watching someone die?

Death Cab for Cutie on their newest album, Plans, declares that “Love is watching someone die.” Kind of a morbid thought, if I’ve ever heard one. While I can’t say that I always, or have ever, really agreed with Ben’s lyrics, I have to say they usually cause me to stop and think. This song is no exception. So, is love watching someone die? I have to say I disagree. Watching someone die could be a result of love but it’s not the definition. On the contrary, I think love is helping others to live. This is probably where Ben and I differ on our outlooks on life drastically. Maybe I’m a little more of an optimist but I think Love is showing others how to live so that they can Live eternally. Wait, how does one Live eternally? It’s quite simple actually, you just devote yourself to Christ and follow his teachings because he’s already died for us. Since he died, we can Live eternally in Heaven. Therefore, I say that if you truly Love, then you will help others Live.

It’s really a beautiful thing watching someone Live.

When do you give up?

When do you give up? When do you call it quits? When do you say enough is enough and move on? Do you wait until the point of exhaustion or is there a point slightly before that when you can slowly step away without any regrets or hurt feelings?

These are the questions I’ve been asking myself lately, but it’s probably not what you think. I am not considering leaving a relationship, I am considering leaving several relaionships. The relationships I’m speaking of are those that have come as a result of being a member of my church.

I love the people. There are a few who ruffle my feathers now and again, but just the same I love them all. The problem is what do you do when a church isn’t meeting your needs? Do you leave and find a new place to worship where your needs will be met or do you owe it to your church family to stay?

The thing that bothers me about leaving is that I see it as a problem that is rampant in the church-going culture of today. In college I knew a lot of people who would attend one service at one church and another at another. I don’t know that there is any scriptural problem with that but I think my college friends may have, in part, been missing something.

To the best of my knowledge, a lot of church hopping is done to find the best programs and the best experiences but is that what church is about? I dont’ think so. At least, I hope not. I think it’s more about family and worshiping God in a way that’s pleasing to him. After all, wasn’t the Greatest Command “Love the Lord your God with all your heart…?” I could be mistaken, but I don’t think God cares what church has the best worship band, praise team, preacher, sound system, or building. He desires that you worship him. It’s not what you get out of it, it’s what He gets out of it, or so I’m beginning to realize.

When Adam and Eve were in the Garden He walked and talked with them. They were in a relataionship with him. I think He probably created us so that we’d be in relationship with Him. Similarly, He created others so that we’d have other relationships. Before Eve was created God realized that it wasn’t good for Adam to be alone so he took one of Adams ribs and made her. I can’t think of a way that God could have made it more obvious that we are to be relational creatures but how should that affect church?

I think in church we should focus on what God calls us to focus on; first Him, then others. It’s what Jesus called the first and second Greatest Commands. If we focus on those things, I think we will be less worried about all the rest. Yes our feathers will get ruffled time to time and we may not always feel like we’re getting what we desire but that’s life.

Now, I’m no longer sure if it’s fair to say the problem is with my church not meeting my needs. I think it’s probably I’m not truely realizing what my needs are. I guess I’ve had a skewed view of the whole situation. There will always be problems in our churches because they are full of imperfect people. The answer isn’t necesarily to give up and move on, although I’m sure there are occations for that, the answer is… hold on and refocus on God. That’s what I’m going to do at least. I can’t give up on the relationships I have. I need to stick it out.


According to The American Heritage┬« Dictionary of the English Language the word esoteric means “Intended for or understood by only a particular group.” Since the contents of this blog will most deffinately contain thoughts that will be understood only by a small group of people, I thought it would be fruituitus to name it thusly.

To tell you the truth, I wouldn’t want to start off by lying, I’m not sure if this experiment will work for me. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to keep a journal, or diary, or blog, or even just write down my thoughts consistantly. Each time I start with great ambition only to loose interest a couple weeks down the road. I hope this time will be different.