I wish I could unsee what I saw this morning on Facebook.

I saw a photo that disturbed me to my core.

I wasn’t sure what I was seeing at first, so I had to look a second time to confirm.

My initial observation was correct. It was exactly what I thought.

Perhaps, I’m a little sensitive. Maybe it says something about me and my faith. Maybe I need to work on changing my perspective.

I understand why the photo was posted. And, I support the decision to post it.

I understand that it can be viewed in a celebratory light.

I understand that it can have a positive message.

But, it just makes me want to crawl into a corner and bawl my eyes out.

It makes me want to retreat.

It makes me… I don’t even have words.

The photo represents one of my worst nightmares.

And, I don’t know how to deal with it.

As a Christian, I’m a little embarrassed.

I should have a handle on it. But, I don’t.

I’m a mess.