I lead singing at church this last Sunday, which is something I do every month or so, as the rotation dictates. It's something I usually enjoy but this time was a struggle for me from start to finish.
To start it all off, I had a terrible time selecting the songs to lead. I generally try to model my services after a theme topic or verse. This time I had nothing to go on. I thought it would be easy to just pick a few random songs that went together but that proved to be extremely difficult for me. In the end I came up with my own vague theme that was probably only apparent to me but it took a week to come to that point.
Because it took all week to come up with the songs, I missed the church bulletin deadline. That meant I had to go print out my own order of worship and make copies to hand out on Sunday morning. When I went to go do that the printer at the church was out of ink, so I had to print out a copy on the fax machine. Annoying, but not the end of the world.
I thought that I had experienced the last of my struggles after the song selection and printer issues but that wasn't the case. When Sunday morning came I felt miserable. I had a terrible head/neck ache that left me marginally nauseous. Fortunately, unbeknownst to the majority of the congregants I was able to push through the service in pain. It went relatively smoothly. I lead one song too high and another lower than desirable, but neither of those instances bothered me too much. Those are somewhat common occurrences in my church. It just was a miserable experience having to ignore the pain for an hour and a half, and it left me utterly exhausted.
I knew it was a bad sign when I began my preparations for the service that week, but I had no idea it would be such a struggle. Next time I might think twice about leading singing if it starts out the way it did this time.