So, I’ve been kind of moody lately. Let me explain why. A position in my office has been open for a few months now, and finally they decided it was time to hire so they posted the job. All along I thought that I might be a good candidate for the position for several different reasons, one being that I am running a lot of the office myself right now.
Now, I knew that the likelihood of me actually being promoted to this position was quite slim, as I have limited experience, but I had to try for my sake. After reading the qualifications and reworking my resume I thought I had a pretty good chance so I submitted my application. I can’t tell you how good it felt when I submitted that application. I felt as if I had been set free. I was on my way up the corporate ladder. I was going to be one of the youngest directors where I worked. Everyone was going to be awed by how fast I was rising… It’s funny how even though you try to keep your self grounded you can still let you imagination get away from you. I really tried to not get excited about the possibilities, but it’s hard when you think you stand a chance.
Anyway, I was flying high until I had lunch with my boss, who just happens to be the one who is hiring for this position. She kindly and gently broke the news to me that she didn’t think I was ready. And more than that, she offered to help groom and prepare me so that I would be ready for a position like this in the next couple years. Really it was the best thing that could have come out of this situation but even still I was crushed. I had to really exert some effort to not break down right there in my lunch. Later I shed a few tears in the bathroom, but at lunch I was able to hold my composure and take the whole thing in stride.
So it looks like I’ll be in the same position for the next couple years.
And, that’s my story. That’s why I’ve been a little moody lately. It’s not a great excuse because really I am blessed because I am secure in my current position. I have a friend right now who isn’t sure he’ll have a job at the end of this week. It kind of makes me feel a little selfish that I’m so concerned over this non-promotion. I hope at least he understands.